I am now on Day 14 of my very first Clomid cycle. I want to be as objective as possible about how I’m feeling but it can be difficult to tease out my regular cycle symptoms from the clomid side effects. Overall, I think I have fared well compared to some of the horror stories I’ve read online. No hot flashes, just the regular amount of acne, and no change in the frequency or intensity of the headaches I experience. My knees tend to hurt when the weather changes but I’ve noticed that my knee joints have been aching more than usual all week. I’m unsure if this is attributable to Clomid or not.
In regards to emotional side effects, I don’t think I can blame how I’m feeling solely on Clomid. I did have a very ugly cry last night after receiving a baby shower invite from my brother-in-law’s sister (Of note, I’ve only met her three times)! Being so focused on trying to become pregnant this cycle after essentially giving up since last fall has been incredibly challenging. Between Pampers commercials, the invite, and pregnancy announcements, I feel so hypersensitive to anything baby related. I am trying to have realistic expectations about the likelihood of Clomid being the magic factor to becoming pregnant, but I can’t help but to feel excessively hopeful/desperate for this to work. The thought of going through this again for another couple of months if this cycle does not work hurts my heart. I cannot even imagine what it is like for the women who wait for results after IUI or IVF.
I’ve been spending much more time the past few weeks following new infertility and adoption related blogs and I feel more validated than ever. There are so many people out there experiencing infertility and it brings me comfort to know that I’m not alone. It gives me so much hope to see pregnancy announcement postings from folks who have dealt with years of infertility. I hope I have the opportunity to post about a successful pregnancy or adoption one day.
I would be curious to hear from others who have tried Clomid… did the “pressure” of trying to conceive feel different? What did it feel like to try a second or third cycle of Clomid?